Unsent Letter #9

Dearest Yesterday,

You remain my biggest regret, and probably my favorite mistake for that matter. My heart melts every time i think about it. I've always thought that since I have lost so much in life, I'll get used to it, but I was wrong, like I mostly am. 

Never have I expected that we will reach this point that we are in now. I have always been the eternal optimist regarding the way we were. Since, I thought, maybe one day you'll realize how much you meant to me and how that smile in your eye brought so much light in this dark and blind life. Like I said, you meant so much to my world then. The fact is, the only gasp of breath I thought I could make, was the one with all your thoughts and smiles, and not with selfish motor desire.

I don't know how i got through today. Perhaps my subconscious desire to stay put and look at you from where I am now, with the pain I'm dwelling in, with the scars reminding me that you never really bothered then.

I'm not writing to talk about the weather, but I wanted to tell you it rained so hard today it  flooded my eyes with tears I never thought I had. It was kinda relieving though, mind you. Also, I think I'm writing because I miss you and that I know I will never see you again.

Truly yours,

Tomorrow