Coffee On A Rainy Night

Loneliness is contagious. 

When you feel it, it stays there for a while and when its through, it just leaves you wasted and sometimes drunk. Blame it on the weather for making you feel that way, others say. But not me, I’ll blame it on her. Its hard when you still have so much to give but cant coz it’s just not right anymore.

Maybe that’s the reason why I’m feeling this way.

I have this tiny urge to talk to her, straightened up all the issues she left me with. I’ve accepted the fact that she’s gone and the possibility that’s its going to be forever, but there are just so much questions that needed to be answered. I’m not begging them to be answered now but, I think it’s just proper that they’d be answered. For the sake of peace I guess.

A coffee would help now but it’s not the right time anymore. The cold breeze is just tempting for something to happen, and the rain screams for her presence to be noticed. 

Lately, I’ve figured out that freedom had a great factor on what happened. Fate might have a touch of its hand with it but freedom had it all in control. We’ve done what we wanted and didn’t care much about anything else.

Maybe its time to let go of everything now, I’ll just pretend to be dumb about the rest of it so it wont be so hard. There’s no reason to feel guilty or maybe ill just blame it on the weather.